DA Absence
Journal Entry: Tue Jan 24, 2006, 8:41 AM
I haven't been on DA in a long time. I just haven't been around and stuff. I'm starting a band and doing alot, so i'm never home and stuff. been working too.
I think I may buy my own xD card for my stepmoms camera and take some pictures. I really want to get into photography, but i'm too lazy and I don't have the money, since all of money goes to guitars and stuff anyways. I know that alot of people are getting upset because i'm never here anymore, but I really would like to get back into making my art.
I can't draw anymore. I've tried and tried, but I can't ever create anything. I've just lost it. I see so many people getting better at the things they wanted to pursue, but i'm just regressing at everything. I'm still alright at guitar, but my creativity isn't very mentionable, so it is hard for me. I don't have any skills with photoshop. Tried learning flash, but just got bored. I'm so down under I don't know what I should do. I ned to find one thing and stick to it. But since I have a job, it gets to be very hard. School + Work + Band = NO TIME, NO MONEY.
Oh well. I gotta save for prom too. >.<; Cici asked me to prom, and I guess my self-esteem renewed itself a little bit; I was set on not going.
I've been though alot, and I know all of you guys have too. But i'm gonna try taking some pictures and stuff, if i can find some things to take pictures of. Cleveland is pretty boring, and there is nothing really impressive about it.
I dunno... We'll see what happens... I might not even come back. -shrugs-
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Saber-Nya says:
My MAGIKARP will RIP APART your Pokemawnz
id pick your friendship over the ocean
you're amazing.
and i can't fucking forget you.
can't can't can't.
but i wish i could
because there's no one like you
and you're what im looking for.
but im not sad, or heartbroken, or anything.
i don't really know how to explain it.
you just showed me what im looking for and i haven't found it anywhere else and i can't drop my standards.
why'd to be so perfect and so rediculously unperfect, all in one?
i still miss you,
but im not sad.
It is strange that lovers eyes are keen to oblivion when the world is just as small as it is large. So what is lost can always be found. There is always a time when souls entwine and feelings unfurl and the loneliness comes to order, and the morning rise will break the impossible and renew their hope. This time can separate as well as erase boundaries, and this length be years, months, or eternity will serve as the note that is waiting to be opened; with letters and words of passion waiting to be read, so that lips of lovers, and eyes of purity connect for the first time.
don't forget.
and well you too for the 3 seconds that we actually got to hang out.
and i was thinking.
maybe ill come down again in like february.
i should be getting around 500$ in senior pictures so ill save some and if we're still cool in a few months then i guess ill mention something.
im still trying to figure out what the hell you were saying on your porch that night.
you said alot of things that ive already said to you, so i think i know how you feel about the situation, but i dont know how you feel about Me.
which is honestly all i care about.
because well, who knows where we'll find ourselves in 4 years.
congrats.
maybe sometime in your life you'll actually be able to talk to people about whats wrong instead of finding an easy way out?
that takes maturity though.
im so sorry.
i wish things were like they used to be.
you do upset me.
i cannot
CANNOT
fucking believe you.
you fucking asshole.
i upset me.
i mean i will, but after texas, no.
i can't care about you.
i can't sit here and feel hopeless all the time.
i just can't.
but i'll never forget you.
you are quite amazing.
<3
i just need to make alot of decisions.
with my head, not my heart.
i just looked at that picture of you "at a show".
damn.
that shit cracks me up.
you're so gay =]
<3
when We are reality, and the dream that We live in right now is over?
will we make it?, because baby, well, we're both just acouple of dreamers.
can't i have 5 minutes to myself?
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5 minutes to not miss you and wonder what the hell we are.
because i don't want to sleep without you next to me.
and i don't want to walk down the street without you holding my hand.
and i don't want to light a cigarette without you lighting one 3 seconds later.
and well frankly, i don't want to miss you, but i do, and it sure is alot.
are very happy to wish you
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